I feel like everything on my blog lately is the same:
confessions about my lack of time to do much of anything…
expressions of how utterly exhausted I am most days…
excitement for all of the things that I want to do…
and happiness over the design waiting list that continues to grow.
Let me emphasize heavily how blessed I feel to be doing what I enjoy doing and contributing to our family.
We’re planning a big vacation in the fall and I am beyond grateful that, for the first time in three years, I am able to help out my husband. For the first time since we got married the financial burden isn’t all on him. We’re now a two income family and I can see huge differences in how we handle our finances, the relationship between the two of us, and just our family life in general. He hasn’t come out and said it, but I think maybe me working helped to lift some of the financial burden that he was feeling (whether he’d ever say he felt it or not).
But, being a business owner hasn’t come without sacrifices.
Sacrificing “me” time.
Sacrificing weekends and early bedtimes.
Sacrificing time that I could have spent with Little Man.
Sacrificing lazy evenings on the couch watching bad tv.
I have so much admiration for moms who work outside of the home. At least working from home gives me some kind of chance to do laundry in between emails or designs. Working away from home? I can’t imagine.
And that said, I don’t discredit stay-at-home moms either. Because I was one. And being home all day, every day with a kid? That, in itself, is admirable.
I guess all of that to say this:
Thank you to those of you who continue to read and comment and take an active part in my blog, even when I can’t (and honestly haven’t been lately…) visit you back. I will find some kind of balance.
A balance that lets me be the blogger that I was, the designer that I am, the mother that my son needs, the wife my husband deserves, and the photographer that I want to be.
But for at least a few more days, I’ll have the keep sacrificing time on the blog. That’s the only area I have to give in right now.
I can’t sacrifice time with my family. Because if I don’t get to spend time with them, then what’s the point of any of the rest? I can’t give any in my business. Because I have clients who expect things and I don’t want to let them down. And I can’t give any in photography…because that business isn’t even off the ground yet.
I’ll get there.
Because I’m too determined not to.
I’ll be visiting everyone’s 52 Faces posts from last week today. See? I told you I was behind. And I have a whole slew of photos that I was going to use for this weeks challenge, but I didn’t get around to editing them. Just this one…that was my absolute favorite.