More often than not, they sneak up on us, disguised as an unfortunate event, a bad day, or-occasionally-a happy accident that we just didn’t see coming out way. Sometimes we acknowledge their life changing reality immediately, understanding that we are at a crossroads in our life and things will never be the same thing. But, oftentimes we don’t realize the true magnitude of what we are getting into; fail to see the importance of the situation we are present in.
Motherhood was like that for me.
In April of 2008, I was a young newlywed. Back from a week and half long honeymoon in Florida with my new husband. I was tan, trim and in impeccable shape. We were getting ready to move into our first home together and really start our lives as husband and wife. We were looking forward to life in the bigger city of Saint Petersburg and planned to attend concerts, try out the hottest new restaurants, and live up our life as a couple before kids ever came into the picture.
But May 9 changed all of that.
That was the day the test came back positive and our life..my life…took a turn.
I always wanted to be a wife and a mother.
My mom was a stay-at-home parent; always present at our class parties, PTA meetings and sports events.
I dreamed of being that kind of mom to my children.
But not yet.
At just 20 years old, I wasn’t ready to be a mom.
I was scared.
Wary in my abilities to take care of a tiny baby.
I’d only ever been around a handful of small children, and usually that interaction (even as a teenager) was with another adult present. I was the first of my friends to get married, and definitely the first to get pregnant.
What would I do?
COULD I do it?
I was coming to a crossroads in my life and didn’t even realize.
Until July 8…
They carried me into the sonogram room and I took my first look at the little miracle growing inside of me.
Those first few moments were some of the most surreal moments of my life…
The soft whooshing of his tiny heart, the movement of his little hands and feet inside of me…the realization that this was my son–our son…
It was overwhelming.
My life changed forever that day.
I suddenly realized and knew what it meant to love something with an abundance that would never be measurable. What it really felt like to love someone so much that you would be willing to do anything in the world to keep them from feeling one second of pain, hurt or sadness.
The reality that I was a mom hit me like a half-ton of bricks that day.
Knocking me to a level of joy, delight, fear and abundant love like I had never known before.
He was my crossroad.
My life changer.
And still is.
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