Noah and Jonah

Currently in July

Reading…  Still working through What on Earth Am I Here For? by Rick Warren, Jesus > Religion (for the second time) by Jefferson Bethke and I Want God by Lisa Whittle. Playing… knock out this to-do list that never, ever ends. Watching… Parenthood Season Six (since we finally finished Criminal Minds and are anxiously awaiting Season 11 on September 30). Trying… to set aside specific work hours, family hours and "me" hours. I still haven't finished my copy of The Fringe Hours that I … [Read more...]

Depression is a Silent Battle via @CourtneyKirklnd

Don’t Judge What you Don’t Understand

I got my first really ugly comment yesterday. I've done well, so far, to brush things off when the not-so-nice comments come through my comment filter. I'm not one to get bent out of shape over things like other people's comments or opinion. And in truth, the comment that was directed at me really didn't bother me because it was about me. It bothered me because of who may read it. Someone commented on my very raw and honest post about my battle with depression. A post that, after … [Read more...]

The Other Side of Fear via @CourtneyKirklnd

Why I’m Scared of Having Faith

I have this fear of mediocrity. Of wasting the one life that I've been given, standing before the Lord some day and realizing that I've done nothing at all to make a difference in this world. I've always been scared of leaving behind this place and no one realizing that I'm gone. Or missing me. Or thinking twice about my existence. I think that's what led me to start a blog all of those years ago...fear of being a vapor. Just a speck on the map of life, here for now and gone in an … [Read more...]

Today I Turn 28

Today I Turn 28 I turn 28. Two more years till I hit the big 3-0. Most people usually toss a "I could have sworn you were already 30" comment my way when they get wind of my age. I'm going to assume that's because of my tendency to spit truth without biting my tongue or because I'm 'wise beyond my years' or an old soul or something of that nature and NOT because I look old than I really am. If that's the case I may need to invest in anti-aging cream or something...but I digress. Ironically or … [Read more...]

When Suicide is the only option you think you have...via @CourtneyKirklnd

When Suicide Felt like the Only Option

I haven't always be happy. In fact, there was a time where I had began to wonder if there would ever be anything in my life that would make me feel like this ridiculous life on Earth was worth all of the headaches and heartaches that I endured time and time again growing up. I wasn't abused physically or sexually, as I know many people who suffer from depression are. I didn't come from a broken home with parents who were alcoholics or who beat each other up. In fact, most people just … [Read more...]


Why People Quit the Church

I've gotten a lot of feedback and read a lot of heartbreaking stories the last few days from ex-church members...ex "christians" (notice that I use the quotations marks when I say Christians). I use those for a distinct reason. Because, like me, many of the people commenting here and emailing me with their stories of brokenness and their stories of hurt, are people who loved the Lord then and love the Lord now. But, they don't love the church. In fact most of them utterly despise it. And I … [Read more...]