Sometimes, that seems like ages. That’s how long it’s been since I started my blog. So much has changed in that time. When I started out, I was a newlywed bride & soon to be mommy who had no IDEA what life had in store for me.
Now, I’m a wife…not a bride. The honeymoon is over, and life happens everyday. Now, I wake up next to the man that I love the most and together we work hard to make a marriage. I get everyday and strive to make a home for my family. I clean, I cook, I clean some more. I am learning day in and day out how to love my husband the way that I am supposed to. How to be a wife. How to be Josh’s helpmate, the way that God intended. There is so much more to marriage than a walk down the aisle and a white dress & veil. marriage is a journey. A walk toward a similar goal.
Now, I’m a mom. Not a soon-to-be, expecting mom. An actual mother. You know, one with a child. There are days that it still seems surreal to me. That I am responsible for another human life. That there is a little person that looks to me to take care of him. To feed him, bathe him, and love him. That is such a huge thing. Something you don’t grasp or understand until it’s upon you. Something that doesn’t register until months after your baby is born [at least, it didn’t for me]. Something that it takes months to adjust to.
So much has changed this past year. Josh and I celebrated our first anniversary. We have fought. We have hurt one another. We have done things we thought we never would. Noah is 10 months old [Today actually]. He can crawl, he can stand, he knows who mama and daddy are. He knows how to say both of them. He explores. He is growing like a weed. He laughs. He smiles. He makes faces. In the past year, we have moved out of our first house to a much nicer, cleaner neighborhood. We have made some pretty stupid mistakes in a lot of different areas. But, together, we have grown as a family. Grown as a couple and grown as parents.
God still hasn’t shown me what he has in store for my life. He is growing me every day. Showing me and teaching me new things. I’ve discovered that he DOES have a plan for me, and for Josh, but that right now, I’m not where I need to be in order for him to reveal it to me. He’s teaching me patience. He’s teaching me to yield to his will and to his voice. He’s helping me to discover his word and the blessings he is willing to pour out on my and my family, if only we learn to allow him.
So. One year of blogging. One year of marriage, and soon to be one year of mommyhood. Noah will be 1 in 2 months. Where is time going? I’m so excited to see what the next year has in store for me. Where God will lead me, where he will lead us, what I will learn, and which things will change. We have a lot of choices ahead of us this next year. We’ll be moving again before this next year is over. We’ll have to choose where this next move is going to take us…whether we will stay down south where our family is within driving distance, or if we will leave behind the familiarity of the south and head North for a while. Step out of our comfort zone and trust God. We have so much to look forward to with Noah. Walking, potty training, and whatever marvels that will come with his second year. Changes to come. Life is a journey and I am excited to see where mine is taking me.